Trying to be so hard to be a good friend to you, but you don't seem to understand that it is not all about you, I need someone to listen to me too :(

So emotionally tired need to talk to my good friend so bad and let it all out before I explode but everyone has their own problems...idk.

Am glad I managed to go out with my PW group for Shermaine's birthday :D Though we did a lot of stupid, stupid things (like ordering 18 bowls of miso soup) and I accidentally kicked JM so many times I hope he doesn't get a bruise x( We still need to watch Let the Right One In! Srsly! Have been talking about this since last year we have to watch it soon.

Am really glad for my PW group and for the fact that we are still on (very) good terms because everyone is so happy and cheery and they brighten up my day XD (But nah they aren't good friends when it comes to the point I laughed so hard in the day till I was struggling to keep my eyes open at 9 at night.)

JM: "You don't need chopsticks, you have fingers." -does an open/close V with fingers-

Also szplmk CTs are coming but I'm hanging in there for a year then I can go study what I want! Whoohoo~

Life has been nothing short of crazy, what with taking up new commitments and all but I'm seeing the meaning in all I do and I'm sure they'll pay off in the end :) They can't be measured but it is making me grow up and emerge from that little bubble that has been shielding me for years.

Having a QT buddy (jellebeans!) has also helped me greatly because I am doing QT everyday and am excited to share what God has shown me through His love and never-ending grace. Yup, still struggling with issues but they will be overcome one day because He is good and His mercies are new everyday.

Louhei with class a few weeks back and we had to share what we want to achieve for this year, and honestly I think I'd be really grateful and happy if I can just stay focused and disciplined, and to focus on important things (other than grades) like God and my relationships with others.

Just had to post this :)

Christmas this year was so, so different for me. I don't really know how to put it but it seemed to have a different meaning for me altogether, where I truly felt that the greatest gift is Jesus- His unconditional love, the true joy that He gives.

During combined service we sang 一件礼物, and these words hit me in the face like a sack of potatoes and I just felt that I have grown old and truly understood the true meaning of Christmas :)

Christmas concert was simple, not grand (unlike BIPC's) but it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Am so, so glad I followed my mom to her church and getting to know the really friendly people at KTCC, and felt like I've never felt before. Am freed from my pride and now I can truly worship the Almighty One in spirit and in truth, thank you God :) Can't help but to tear when the pastor shared the message and played "We are the reason", because we ARE the reason that He is here.

:)

Blessed Christmas :)

Spent the first 2 weeks of my holidays in the hospice on job attachment, but it was so much more than that. So much more to learn, so much more to feel and experience, so much more to think about.

It's not a dreary place, but a really cheery place full of familial warmth and support as the patients finish their life journey. Sat in for a few family conferences, and got to know how the patients and their families are facing death, some bravely, some not so, but still heartwarming all the same when they come together to plan how to make the patient as comfortable as possible :)

They do have beautiful smiles :) And some appear angsty and angry until you really get to know them, and they are so, so beautiful inside. There were some occasions where I really wanted to cry when the patients in my wards passed away, but you are reminded that they have passed on peacefully and it is so much more easier to handle.

If there's anything I've learned, it's the serenity to accept things that cannot be changed, how brave they are in facing death which seems so scary to us.

And I have no intention of becoming a doctor lolol the doctors there thought we all wanted to become future doctors and shot us with so many questions. Imma get my degree in Social Work and for once, be able to do something and not feel helpless and wanting to help but having no means to ^_^

Seventy times seven.

Give me strength to do it. Such a disappointment.

Felt a tad demoralized yesterday, but Ms Leow's emails are always very timely.

( Installing Love )

It's a beautiful email :}

PROMOS ARE OVER!!! PROMOS ARE OVER!!

Was praying that God's peace would be on me for all my papers, and it was :) Didn't panic at all so thank God :D

Need time away from people and time for myself I think this will be a good break. Then it'll be ~OP~ all the way I am sort of dreading it but it means more time with my PW mates so it kind of balances out x)

And fweee looking forward to Saturday and spending time with my favorite people :D